
The lights are dimmed, music playing
Everyone's waiting, but I can't walk in
Because I know what this night means
I thought I was looking forward to it
I was so sure of my choice before I left
But now that I'm here, I can't help second-guessing
I was so grateful when you took me in
Offering a hand, sweeping me off my feet
I used to think; the crimson moon brought me to you
But maybe it only brought me here, in truth
And I know the question; you want to ask me
But I don't think I can give you the answer you need
I thought my heart was yours; I was so ready to give it
But without my notice, someone else stole in and claimed it
All the time we spent getting to know one another
I spent blind to what was growing under all the while
And what seemed perfect on paper falls by the water
When it's he and I, who are always together
I'm not the only one blindsided
I think all this caught him off guard too
Like a fire newly lit, slowly accepting it
It was hard to predict, from our first meeting
But first impressions can be deceiving
And now I think he'll be the one, I miss the most by leaving
After all, what do we really know of each other?
Our conversations have only ever been shallow
Barely deep enough to allow anything to grow
Still little more than the strangers we were a month ago
And everything seems perfect if we never look beyond the surface
But the truth is, it all still leaves me feeling, adrift
I don't belong here, for more reasons than one
The worlds we inhabit are not the same ones
It's a fluke they aligned this long
When he and I are the ones with everything in common
While watching the discrepancies between us grow, I wonder why you love me so
It could be my table manners, for all I know
And the pet names, you bestow, on me
Only widen a distance, which should be non-existent
If I return my feelings in full
I wouldn't find myself growing closer to another
Unable to help myself from following after
Like a rope, returning to an anchor
I was certain, I was certain, of the choice I made
But now I can't bring myself to stay
All the while pretending, nothing has changed
It's time I return home, to live with everything I've learned
So, when the crimson moon paints the sky again
Maybe I can come back with an answer; I won't have to second guess
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